It sucks when you are not the favorite child!

Are you the favorite child? If you are STOP READING NOW! If not then you could probably totally relate. You know what I hate? I hate that I can feel the difference of love distribution amongst the children in my family. It's so funny because my mom thinks that she doesn't treat us differently but she totally does my dad doesn't but my mom does and I find it hilarious that she can't tell she totally treats my sister more special. My sister always gets the jewelry she wants no matter how much it costs, she always gets the best family heirlooms and always gets first dibs on anything we get a choice on. When it comes to me and my brother we just get whats left or whatever the budget allows or whatever my sister does not want. The funny thing is even when something has been given to me its still offered to her as if its not mine already! yeah funny hu? kinda sad actually...It just amazes me that my mom can't tell she enables this. In my house the whole world revolves around my sister. But if we even barely mention it my mom denies it completely and is not even willing to step back and see what she is doing. She always says its because she's the older daughter so she gets to choose first and always choses the best and most valuable thing in the bunch I personally do not think that has anything to do with age she is just my mom's favorite. You know I'm not saying she doesn't deserve the treatment she totally does because she's great and I do love her because she is my sister but I would definitely be lying if I said it didn't bother me, it does bother me infact sometimes it bothers me more than it should. I'm not generally a jealous person and I'm not really jealous of the stuff she gets I think its deeper than that I think I'm jealous of her relationship with my mom and the treatment or attention she gets from her. My mom always asks her opinion and never cares about mine (even though a lot of the time mine is the same or better) and they talk for hours and when I ask whats up or when I come in I'm rarely included if ever! When I ask my mom whats up she always says nothing but when my sister asks she gets all the gossip and bonding and info that is never shared with me first or sometimes at all! and I'm always the last to know anything at my house. I just feel like my mom totally favors her I'm sure my brother feels the same way sometimes. I hate jealousy and I try so hard not to be jelous but like I said its not the materials its deeper its the treatment. I always try to repress my envious feelings of my sister and I just keep these feelings in or cry when I'm alone, it wouldn't be valued or paid attention to if I brought it up they would say I'm being a baby or I'm acting stupid they wouldn't understand anyway. When or if I become a parent some day I'm totally going to be completely aware of the relationship I have with my kids and I'm going to try a lot harder than my mom does to bond with them evenly and fairly.

Confidence Maker? or Confidence Breaker? Which One Are You?

Breaking someone's character and confidence is one of the worst things someone can do to another person. Insulting their Positive and strong character traits is such a horrible thing to do to someone and very uncalled for. What the hell are people thinking? don't you know when you insult someone's strong and what they think are positive character traits what happens? its not going to make them change it its just going to aggrivate them and or make them hate you! Why? Why be a confidence breaker? I actually had someone tell me today that I'm too passionate when I talk about stuff? what the hell is that? UH! HELLO! Last time I checked it was a good thing to be passionate about what you're talking about..because if you're not passionate about something then why the hell talk about it? besides people who speak passionatly about something make it interesting? rather than pe

Television!! Entertainment or way of life?

Television is not only today's entertainment but in lots of lives it has replaced many relationships, friends, and hobbies. It kinda qualifies for spending quality time with people now too we just invite them over to watch tv with us. I have been invited to watch tv with friends who miss spending time with me many times. We hang out and just watch some good ol' tv together. Ofcourse television like everything in the world has its advantages and disadvantages. For people who are introverted and loners its good because they don't have to socialize with anyone while watching. Television is something most people who don't like being alone can even do alone without being bothered. For people who have a hard time making friends or getting along with people its great too because the tv doesn't ever insult you or hurt your feelings and or if it does you just change the channel which is totally something you can't do to a friend which all of us at some point wished we could. Television has something for everyone for the "social people" it has many sitcoms and different shows and movies, for the "nerds and geeks" that want to watch something they can learn from there are a lot of educational channels both historical and modern and for the "hands on" type of people there are tons of things they can learn to do such as new recipies or home improvement shows and learn how to build things. And for the fashion lovers ofcourse television is the most fabulous place to learn the latest fashion. We can eat while watching tv we can relax while watching tv and we can entertain others while watching tv. Television can give us many different emotions we can watch things that make us happy , sad, excited, scared or whatever emotion we feel like having..thats the type of program we can watch. Lots of times we take the advice and information we learn from the television programs and use it in our everyday lives so who says television can't be educational?! It sure can!! There is something for everyone! Here is something to think about Is television our new best friend? Sometimes I think its mine ;) LOL!

Reality Check

When you enter a relationship its really nice to get completely involved with the person you are seeing. Especially if the involvment is mutual, I think the best types of relationships are the kind that you get so involved with the person you are with that you kinda forget about everyone else and that special person becomes one of your main priorities in life and all of the choices and decisions you make for your life includes them and you always keep in consideration how it effects them.. REALITY CHECK most people are not like that! relationships like that are rare if not extinct! so we the rare breed of us that are like that Wake up we shouldn't be like that either... when going into a realtionship you should always be yourself and stay yourself don't change unless its what you want! and Don't make everything revolve around your partner because they are not doing that for you and when you wake up to realize that, you are only going to get hurt. When they think about their life you'll be lucky if they even consider you in it. In some cases when they talk about their life and future its like you aren't even included in their future. So keep your choices and your own decisions about your life separate from your relationship and think of yourself before you think of the other person, because thats what they are doing... That is one of my weaknesses that I have which I'm trying to work on. Unfortunetly when I'm in a relationship I drown myself in it and I want that person to be involved in everything and I want to be involved in everything about them..but I have experienced that its not such a good idea to do that and you should surround yourself with many different people and not only that one person, It's good to think of them as more special than the rest but don't isolate yourself only to them because if you are more involved in the relationship and its not mutual then you are going to get hurt in the long run... You don't always know that you are isolating yourself only to them untill the person you are seeing makes a small comment which is not intended to hurt you but hurts beyond words and makes you step back and have a reality check.. sometimes its something really small and maybe something simple which seems unimportant to them but makes u just feel really hurt. Then you look at yourself and you're like dude! what are you doing? back off obviously they are not as engaged to this relationship as you are! ...its heartbreaking but true. Its not their fault everyone is different. You shouldn't do anything irrational like ruin the relationship or end it but every once in a while a REALITY CHECK is much needed, but I sorta wish I could have one without getting hurt. So when things don't feel right or when they feel TOO RIGHT just step back and give yourself a REALITY CHECK!

Is Education a scam?

Is education just a business?
Sometimes I feel like education is just a way students everywhere are torturing themselves. Is it a scam? or is it a business? Are they just making money from students everywhere? We pay thousands and thousands of dollars ever semester to complete courses which we want to get over with and rarely enjoy, feel imprisoned and obligated to go, want to go home as soon as possible get excited when what we paid for being the classes..are cancelled, study for hours and hours for exams which contain materials which we probably will not remember a few months later, get all stress out, and all for what?! just to get a paper in the end saying that we have done this and paid thousands of dollars for this paper which is considered so valuable in society today, the infamous "Degree" Have you noticed when you go for a job interview some of the first questions they ask are what have you studied? what "Degree" do you have? and where from?? Although I have seen it myself on many different occasions people who have not been to college are in a different if not lower social class and have completely different lifestyles than those have "Degrees" but I think the main idea we have all come to accept and agree upon unfortunetly is "No College No knowledge" in some cases it is true but in other cases I have met many people who are doing fine without a "Degree" and or have one but are not even working in their own field which the "Degree" says they are trained for. I do believe everyone should experience college in one way or another although at times I do have my doubts about the infamous "Degree" I guess its just an open ended question is Education a scam? a business? or is it really essential in one's life?